About seven weeks after giving birth to my son, I became pregnant again. Yes, you read that correctly…seven weeks. Granted, I didnt know (or chose to accept) that I was pregnant till about two months after that, but it’s hard to ignore the math when your second child is due the day after your firstborn’s first birthday. To say that we were surprised would be the understatement of the year. I was too scared to even tell my parents till I was almost six months along. They just thought I was still carrying around those extra baby pounds. HA! Little did they know.
It was a tumultous, scary time for us. Darrell and I were still navigating the path of being new parents to our son, Jaxen. We were still trying to figure out how we fit into the roles of “mom” and “dad” and how it affected us as a couple. Let me rephrase: we were scared shitless. The thought of more diapers, more formula, more dr.’s appointments, more clothes was beyond overwhelming. Not only were we concerned about the financial aspects of having another child, I would look at Jaxen and just wonder how in the world I could EVER love someone else as much as I loved him. I just knew that I was going to be a horrible parent to our second child…the level of intimacy between Jaxen and I had already been established. How could I possibly have this bond with someone else?
And then we had the ultrasound. When the technician told us we were having a girl, I had the pleasure of watching my dear husband turn shades of green that I have never even seen before. Talk about classic.:)
March 15, 2004, Jalyn Elizabeth entered the world…. a mere twelve days before her brother’s first birthday, creating a twelve day time period every year where my two kids are actually the same age. Right now, both my children are five. At least until Jaxen’s birthday on the 27th.
And regarding my fears that I could never have a place in my heart big enough for two kids… well, I was totally wrong, of course. Jalyn’s sweet little smile and laid back demeanor stole my heart right away. How could you not love a face like this?
Happy Happy Birthday, sweet baby girl. I love you bunches!!!