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I’ll Cover You

“Live in my house, I’ll be your shelter.
Just pay me back with 1,000 kisses.
Be my lover, and I’ll cover you…

Open your door, I’ll be your tenant.
Don’t got much baggage to lay at your feet.
But sweet kisses I’ve got to spare,
I’ll be there, and I’ll cover you.”

-jonathan larson

It’s hard to make yourself vulnerable.  Opening yourself up to the possibility of rejection, and failure, is scary.  But sometimes, in order to be able to live with yourself, you have to take that calculated risk. Even if it doesn’t turn out the way you wish it would.  Knowing that you can, and most likely will be hurt, doesn’t make the pain any less when it actually happens.  But…there is a sense of pride that wasn’t there before.  A little voice saying, “Good for you!”.  Even if your heart is a little sore, a little more bruised than it was when you woke that morning – at least when you lay your head down at night, you’ll know that you were one hundred percent, whole-heartedly, without any reservations – true to yourself.  And fully in the moment.  And you gave it all you had.  Really…is there anything more you can do?  I think not.

Your loss, for not recognizing… or appreciating.

And when you do walk away, shaken, and disbelieving at how easily you could be sucked into that vortex, you have friends to hold your hand, guide you back to yourself, and whisper those three words that always mend your spirit:

I’ll cover you.



Posted by on January 9, 2012 in Friends, Love, Music, my rockin' friends, RENT, Song Lyrics


Escaping the Heat/ Entering the World of Oz

This weekend we spent some wonderful time with amazing friends.  Friends who let the kids and I invade their cool home as our air conditioner was struggling to cool our little heat box of a house.  These days of 100+ degrees are quickly getting old.  But when you can sneak off to create memories with those you love — well, a hot house isn’t too much of a big deal, I guess.

This is Jalyn with her dear friend Alyssa (the daughter of my dear friend, Renea).  I call them Dorothy1 and Dorothy2.  They proceeded to put chairs next to each other and conduct a talk show entitled “Talk Time with Dorothy”.  Alyssa was the hostest, asking Jalyn questions like, “So…how did you feel when your house blew away in the tornado?” and “Where in the world did you get those darling red glitter shoes??”.   Absolutely priceless.

Next up, a little twirling from the Dorothy(s).  Because really…who doesn’t love to twirl??

Of course, the Wizard of Oz isn’t complete without the other characters as well….

After the WoO  was complete, we headed over to Alyssa’s grandparents’ amazing new home for a quick swim.  Our “quick” swim turned into 8 hours of fun in the sun and stars. I’m a sucker for nighttime swimming, and you pretty much have to twist my arm to get me to leave a place this beautiful.  I think it’s quite possible we overstayed our welcome, LOL…good thing our friends love us.

[And since I’m writing this post in retrospect, I can safely say that many more fun-filled days like this one occurred this summer.  Although the first one, as we all know, is always special:)]


1: A Decade in Review

Happy New Years to everyone!!  I hope you all rang in the New Year in a safe fashion, yet just the way you wanted, surrounded by those you love.  In lieu of posting the normal resolutions (aka goals) that I usually make each year, today I’ve decided to share a brief review of the last decade of my life.  It’s been a big one– lots of firsts.  Lots of heartache.  But even more importantly, lots and lots of love!

2000:  I rang in this new year with a small party at the apartment I shared with my college friend Erica.  I remember lots of party hats, poppers, and dressing up like Britney Spears and performing “Hit Me Baby” for my friends.  Wow…how my celebrations have changed:)  In March of this year, I lost my best friend.   But in August of this same year, I began to hang out with my current best friend.  God certainly knew I needed some strong friends in my life!

2001:  In January of 2001, I almost lost my dad.  Long story short, his doctor had put him on two types of medication that were apparently fatal when combined.  His kidneys and liver shut down, and the doctors said that he would have died within 24 hours if we hadn’t gotten him to this hospital, because his heart was beginning to shut down also.  Without a doubt, the scariest time of my life.   While my dad was in the hospital, his father passed away.  My dad obviously couldn’t be with him as he was passing, but thankfully, with the use of a cane, he was able to attend the funeral service, which my sister and I sang at.   In April of this year, I met Darrell, although we didn’t actual begin “dating” until September.  I remember him calling and asking me on our first date on September 11th (I had already left town to go stay with my family during the days following the terrorist attacks).  This was pre-caller-ID days for me, and he didn’t leave his phone number, LOL.  How was I supposed to call and accept his offer?? :0)  This was a VERY tumultous year in my life.  I’m not embarassed to admit that I spent a large part of it intoxicated.  Also in April of this year though, I met another of my very best friends (although I didn’t like her at first, LOL!).

2002:   Still drank a lot, but that quit when I became pregnant.  I vividly remember crying on the 4th of July because I didn’t have any pants that fit. I thought I was getting so fat (alcohol does bloat you, ya know!), but apparently, I was almost three months pregnant.   When I was seven months pregnant, I was also laid off from my job for the first time in my life.

2003:  February- I competed in a local contest, and was named Oklahoma Country Idol.  Too bad the sponsoring radio station went under and I never did get any of my prizes.  March 27, 2003- birth of my precious son, Jaxen.  Life was never the same after that.  Especially when I began to suspect I was pregnant again about seven weeks after giving birth.  I was in such denial that I wouldn’t even take a test until August— sometimes you just know!  I began working at a local bank during this time, and although I loved the job, I hated the people I worked with.  I’ve never been surrounded by so much negativity in my life!

2004:  March 15, 2004- birth of my beautiful daughter, Jalyn.  My life suddenly became VERY busy with two kids in diapers & still on bottles.  I still found time to sing, and this was FINALLY the year that I was named Best Female Country Singer at the national Talentquest Singing Competition in Laughlin, NV.  $3500, a big ass trophy, and still one of the proudest moments of my life!  In October of this year, I began working at the law firm that I’m currently still with.   And if I recall correctly, this is the year I met my favorite gay at our annual A.S.S. Christmas show.  He was worried I was going to upstage him:)  (Maybe it was ’05???)

2005:   Busy, busy with the kiddos, but got a promotion at work– woot woot!  AND,  my sister-in-law had her first baby, I became an auntie for the first time (although technically I was already by marriage) , and became engaged to Darrell!  Darrell began his electrician apprenticeship program, and in May, we bought our first house.  It was a good year.

2006:    My little sister had her baby in September.  Almost as exciting as having my own children, I cried & cried because I was just so happy for her.  Young– yes, but she stepped up to that motherhood job like nothing I’ve ever seen, and became an immediately amazing mom. 

2007:   In April, I became an auntie again!  (My sis-in-law is a baby making machine!!).   On the same exact day, my car blew up, and I had to face the situation of purchasing my very first car by myself.  Scary, but exciting, and definitely monumental.   I also lost my beloved grandmother this year.

2008:  Guess what?? I became an auntie again!  (I told you she was a baby making machine, LOL!).  And a mere few weeks later, I became Mrs. Darrell Hall.  Other than the birth of my children (obviously), the BEST day of my life.  One of the highlights:  watching Darrell’s brother try to make his best man speech, and crying so hard he couldn’t speak.   Darrell worked a lot this summer, driving to and from Lawton almost every day for two months, so the kids and I spent the summer making lots of fun outside memories–and Mom read a LOT of books!  J-Bo and Sister Bear started school this year, and yes, I cried.   In January of this year, I also began at my current position at work.  Scary, scary, scary–but thankfully they were patient with me, and forgave me the huge learning curve that I had yet to obtain.   Ohhh….and the Overflowing Bookshelf began this year as well.

2009:  Still at the Firm.  Kids busy busy with school.  Jaxen started soccer this year, and lost his first tooth the day after Christmas.   Both kids learned to read this year, but especially Jalyn– she’s my little bookworm.   Closed out the decade by falling asleep at 9:30, kids falling asleep shortly thereafter, and missing the ball drop for the first time in my life.  Amazing what a difference a decade can make.

I’m glad that I’m no longer who I was at the beginning of this decade.   I’m a content, happy mom of two, with a wonderful husband, and the best friends a girl could ever ask for.   Obviously, I couldn’t touch on every single milestone that occurred in our lives.  The above-mentioned ones were just the biggies that popped in my head first.  And also, there are apparently many stories I could tell that include events in my friends lives as well, but hey—I’ll let them use them on their blogs:)

Here’s to 2010–may it be blessed with even more wonderful memories!  In closing– here is my favorite photo of the decade.


I get by with a little help from my friends

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about friendship…particularly, adult friendships. Remember how easy it was when you were kids? You were “best friends forever” with whoever happened to be sitting next to you in class, on the school bus or who lived next door to you. Things began to get dicey when you entered middle school, and there was always the drama of who was your best friend. It was heartbreaking if you found out that your bff had suddenly became bff’s with another. Friends often changed as quickly as the weather did.

Things seemed to calm down a little when the high school/college years came along. There wasn’t quite as much drama and internal arguing in your group of friends, but friends did seem to rotate a lot. Especially during college, when people were constantly changing majors, moving out of the dorm, starting a new job. All of these things affected who you considered your “friends”. To feel cool and accepted, it was always best to have many friends…the more the merrier. It was vital to always be able to have an instant party with a few, well-placed phone calls.

Then comes marriage. And kids. (Or kids, and then marriage, in my instance.) And suddenly–you find out who your real friends are. You find out who is willing to skip a bar night to come hang out with you and your newborn. Who is willing to watch movies in jammies on New Year Eve, and consider it a great time. Maybe even a friend who thinks going to the zoo with toddlers sounds enjoyable. Adult friendships are not only less work, in that you aren’t constantly bickering between yourselves as you did in the younger days, but also more work, because you have to fight for that time together in the chaotic world of being a responsible grown-up.

I’ve been lucky and very, very blessed to have friends from my childhood that have carried over into adulthood. I have a few college friends that I’m still in contact with, and even if we don’t see each other often, we always pick up right where we left off. But most recently, I’ve found that the friendships I made during my twenties have been the ones that have really stuck. I like to think this is because I chose my friends… and they chose me. As an adult, you have the option of whether or not you want to hang out with someone. It’s not like your elementary years, when you’re around the same kids, day in and day out, and almost forced to befriend each other out of necessity. My crew and I click because we love the same things. We love books. We love music. We love concerts. We love theatre. We love our children, nieces and nephews, and spouses (even when they’re being asses). And most importantly, we provide each other with an unwavering, supportive love.

I’m so glad that I purposefully rid my life of the emotional vampires who sucked the life right out of me. I’m happy that I choose to surround myself with such fabulous people. And although I consider myself to be a friendly, outgoing person…. I hope, that if you are in my world in some small way…that you feel at least a little bit special, because I obviously think that you are:)

“Friends we are
Friends we’ll be
Friends forever you and me.
Search the world,
and we shall see,
together- just how happy we can be.”
-Jessica Kenney, age 10


Posted by on September 18, 2009 in Friends